look forward look backward

cowards die many times before their dead. What in your mind with this sentence. how similar my feeling now. Obviously, it was seen vague in my future and it not clear at all. erm...no wonder. i am near the cliff because of my graduation is coming soon. haiz..i tend to look forward should i continue to study for next grade? but so far it make me every tired becoz study is not means by can get a better life for future. If i start a job then fight within 5 yrs, may be can open a small restaurant or other elegant artshop to pursue my aspiration. So confuse the decision, once we do the wrong thing we can not turn backward. hOW...